Sunday, March 29, 2009

Grateful Memories

Tonight, I'm filled with grateful memories of my "youth," being married to Pete. He was, at times, very attentive with me. He'd come out with very "romantic" lines, like, "I've seen you more beautiful, but I can't remember when." There were times when we'd be in a crowded room, with everyone "decked" out for an evening of dining and dancing; at an Officer's Club on some military base, for example, and he'd get close to me and ask, "How does it feel to be the most beautiful girl in the room?" Or something like, "Has anyone ever told you, you have the most beautiful lips in the world?" Of course, I have to admit, I used to spend a lot of time, getting myself ready for these occasions. As a result, we got into the "routine," of Pete going down the the lounge, ahead of me, whenever we stayed at hotel, or base. Peter really enjoyed sitting at a bar, drinking a (dry) Martini, waiting for me to arrive. Ahh, those were the days..... to be in love.....

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Off the night shift

Hi There Faithful Friends,

Currently working what I hope is my last night at the sleep lab. I ended up NOT giving my 2 wk. notice last week, as my computer crashed, before I could finish the "resignation" letter! I took that as a "sign" that it was not time. However, I did give my notice yesterday. I offered to train my replacement, if necessary, but I have a feeling they may not schedule any patients in the next 2 wks. ..... Tonight I am treating an older gentleman, with severe sleep apnea. He was fitted with a full-face mask, and is not doing well on a current pressure of 16 cm H20. The max I can go up to, is 20, on this machine. He is still having apnic events, and his oxygen is decreasing as a result. Perhaps you can tell, I do enjoy the work, just not the HOURS!
I became a respiratory therapist, after my husband death, as he needed a lot of respiratory care. I have enjoyed my work with patients very much, and I will always an RT, for family, friends and loved ones who may need my care. It's been a great learning experience.

Saturday, March 21, 2009



"Today.....I want to please you more, than I did before." This is part of a song that's been running through my head the past week or so. Today the moon is in Aquarius. When the moon is in Aquarius, as it is for the next couple of days, you can "expect the unexpected." What you were so sure was going to happen, simply doesn't. Well, Today , I experienced that in a negative way. However, I did not let it affect me negatively. In stead, I sang songs to my dogs. They are the only ones who will listen to me.

Friday, March 20, 2009


Spring. My Favorite Season

The First Day of Spring

Today is the first day of Spring, the season of new beginnings. New births, new loves, new blossoms of every kind.

Thursday, March 19, 2009


That's my leg (lap) his legs are resting on. I was massaging them.
Making the "best of it."


RSS Feed

If anybody out there, including "customer service" at, can give me my proper RSS Feed off my blog, I would greatly appreciate it. The one I'm trying to add to my AmazonConnect, is apparently not correct, as it is not allowing me to add it. I have been trying to find a contact on blogger, but have not been able too.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Working a night job

I am currently working in a sleep lab, doing a Polysomnograhpy (baseline) study. I'm planning on giving my 2 wk notice to quit tonight. As a "night owl," working nights is not too difficult. However, as a person who requires a lot of sleep, (8-9 hrs per day)the mornings are rough. The next day, I'm lucky if I get 6 hrs. sleep, as it's just difficult for me to sleep in the daytime. Invaribly, I feel "run down" the day after working a night shift; almost like I'm about to get a cold. For those lucky people, who can get by with 5-6 hrs. or less a night, this job may not be to difficult. I'm taking a gamble by quiting, as I'm believing that my recent book release will soon be keeping me busy, and generating enough income, at the same time.
In truth, one of the hardest things about workig nights, is the fact that I miss my dogs terribly..... I know they are OK, as they are not left alone, but they are all getting old, and require a lot of care. Taking care of them is the "job" I love best.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Writing a book on a Blog

I've been really hesitant to write my next book on my Blog. Although I had started a children's book about dogs, I've recently switched gears to a much more serious piece. Another non-fiction story about a tremendous and rare experience I had, in trying to save a dear friend's life. It was a battle of a lifetime, for about one month's time. I never worked so hard in my life; around the clock for nearly two weeks straight, times two. I had to take 10 days off to travel back home to Florida from his home in North Carolina, for some personal business. During that time, he landed back in the hospital, after I nearly had him on the road to recovery. Got him back home again, and lost him after about one week. He did not receive the physical healing I was working so hard for, but in the process, he did receive a Spiritual healing. And we finally could connect, spiritually. That was the only thing missing in our seven year relationship. It was so beautiful. We sang beautiful songs together and to each other. We prayed outloud together. We chanted. I feel I have to write this story.
On a personal note, I feel like I am an "Angel of Death." Besides my experience with my first husband's death, and this dear friend of mine's death, I also was called in to help a former (favorite) patient of mine die last year. It's a recurring theme. That was the only case, where I knew I was being called upon to help someone die; not live. In this last case, I was in absolute denial. And with my husband, my denial went up to the night before he past.
I have been "journaling" about this experience, and I feel it may be time to actually start writing it on my Blog. Still hesitant.

Panda for Gringo! Welcome Back!

Monday, March 2, 2009


I AM, are the two most powerful words one can use. Whatever you place after those words, sends out a powerful message to the Universe. So, be careful of the words you speak, think, or feel.

I AM in tune with the Universe. Being in tune with the Universe, is being at the right place at the right time, doing the "right" thing.


Sunday, March 1, 2009

Faithful Devotion, Description

How does it feel to come to the end of your first tour of duty, as a twenty-three year old Army Officer? How does it feel to leave your command post, and walk through a human corridor of 1400 men, each of whom salute you with the snapping of their rifles, and shouting the Korean words for, I'm ready to fight!, present arms? It was at this moment that "Peter" (Alvin Louis Smith, Jr.) had arrived; had accomplished his military goal. After the Korean Conflict, Peter's next Foreign assignment as vice counsel in Port Said, Egypt, brings the reader into the world of espionage, intrigue and murder. The espionage theme picks up again in Bangkok, Thailand, where he worked undercover at a tourist attraction he and his partner developed. The theme park called, TIMLAND, enjoyed international fame, when the reigning Miss Thailand became Miss Universe, and had pictures of herself taken at TIMLAND, saying how much she liked the park. From Bangkok, Peter volunteers for Vietnam, where he gets involved in "The Green Beret Murder Case," which many believed to be caused by him. When it was discovers that his Principle Agent was a double agent. The agent, Chuyen Thai Khac, was murdered Although Peter was the only Green Beret of the eight arrested who was against the murder, he like the others, spent 28 days in solitary confinement in Vietnam.